Just another weekend in Hades

Fun weekend!  I had a friend from my previous life come through town for the weekend, so of course it gave me the opportunity to drink heavily :). I TRIED to be really good and stick to my 3 weeks without drinking plan, but no luck.  I did better than I have been lately, so there's still hope.

So, this friend is like a free-spirited gypsy man-child, with an extreme-sports kick to him.  He had never been to Hades, nor knew a thing about it, so it was fun dragging him around town.  It did lend itself to a problem I haven't had here yet...

My house is REALLY small, really old, and has no halls.  You have to walk through one room to get to another.  And my interior doors dont shut.  No big deal with just Cerberus and I, but when you throw a drunk man-child and the bar trash he's picked up into the mix, it makes for a mildly awkward night's sleep. 

Maybe I need better doors.

For Nyx

Good lord Nyx loves to stir some action up, so I feel obligated to do a little posting before I go out tonight... so last post was about me giving up douchebags... we'll come back to that shortly.

I'm also on this 3 week crazy-ass detox program because I've been having a little TOO much fun in Hades and have to get healthy again.  I've done awesome this week, but then the weekend comes and Athena gets a little tempted and ...BAM..  drank a little last night, got hit on by 10 creepers and 1 cutie... and if I hadn't been a total ho-bag and slept with his co-worker then maybe I would have taken him up on his offer for a date Tuesday. You may be missing part of this story.  Co-worker may require a nickname.We'll call him Helios... Greek God of the sun, and also a sheep herder.  It makes sense, trust me.

I'll write about Helios tomorrow.  Part man, part douchebag, part really kinda funny in a sarcarstic way.  F. 

Purging the Douchebags

This makes me sad.  I love doucbebag men.. I dont know why, but I LOVE them.  For someone that's so conscious to be nice to those around them, you'd think I'd hate them. Nope.  Love them.  They're kinda like an ice cream sundae, you know they're bad for you, but dang it you love to sink your teeth in every once in a while. I clearly have issues with douchebags in moderation so I've decided to give them up.

Step 1:  I called it off with Fedora. Not that he's been a douchebag to me, but lets admit it... the other women in his life dont know about me and he's never put me first, so kinda falls into the DB category.  We've been having htis "whatever it is" for over a year now, and he's been nothing but totally honest with me.  I've known from the beginning what our deal was and never expected more. Maybe that was the problem?  So, Im driving up to meet him recently and just have this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach.  When I got to his place, that weird feeling was gone and we had a few drinks, caught up, and it felt totally normal and I had missed him quite a bit.  Then, he kissed me and out of no where I just blurted out. "I cant do this... I want more"  As we sit there kinda staring at each other, "Dog Days" (Florence + the Machine) came on Pandora and I realized what I needed to do.  We chatted for a while and I just explained that I just cant mentally run around and look for the real thing at that same time. We hugged and I left.  I think the universe was speaking to me with the Florence song... seriously.  Its my theme song and the timing was like a slap in the face.

Step 2:  No more messing around. Equally as sad, but I've never been a one night stand kinda girl and I'm really kinda sick of not making it past 3-4 weeks with a guy.  It makes it worse when I've slept with them, not rocket science, so I need to stop.  It just confuses my brain

Step 3: Im NOT going to stop giving people (men) the benefit of the doubt. I was recently lectured on this, that I'm too trusting, too honest, and need to stop assuming the best in people.  I understand the advice, I hear it, but Im not taking it. 

We'll see how this goes.  I may need a DB fix soon...

Purging

Oh lord!  Its been a fun few (ummm, 6) months!  Maybe a little TOO much fun and time to get back to reality.  So, Im purging... and here's my list of things I'm purging:
1. No more crazy drunk food
2. No more stressing over the DBB
3. No more douchebag men

Ack!  1 and 2 should be easy, as I've been there before and it hasnt been too much of a challenge.  #3? That ones's gonna be a BIG problem. 

Oh, how I've neglected you!

Blame it on the alcohol and excessive partying, but I've neglected you.  For that I apologize... we've got a LOT to catch up on.